Have you ever felt that you have not accomplished anything of value recently or perhaps your entire life?
I bet we all have questioned your past decisions.
Maybe I should have been more ambitious /
less ambitious /
made better decisions /
cared for myself more /
stood up for myself during that argument /
backed down from that unnecessary argument.
Maybe I should have….. done this.
May be I should have …. done that.
Then, I would have accomplished this or that /
they would not have treated me like this etc etc
I think I can safely assume that almost all of us go through a stage where we question whether our life is going in the right direction and sometimes we do feel like we are not making much of an impact in this world. And of course, we all have those people who take great pleasure in making us feel inadequate or incompetent.
I had a couple of people in my life who made me feel really bad about myself. One would smirk at me condescendingly at whatever I said or did and the other would twist everything and ascribe sinister motives to whatever I said or did. So, I was a bumbling fool for one but a criminal mastermind for another. Haha! After a few attempts to impress them / reconcile with them / be nice to them / be a doormat / whatever you call it, I understood that nothing I do or say is going to change the way they talk to me or portray me to others. Moving away or putting up with this forever were the only two options I had and with great guilt and mental turmoil, I chose the former.
Moving away was accomplished but by this time, I had become an expert in silencing the many voices that said nice things about me and focus only on the words of these two who went out of their way to prove to me that ” I do not measure up”.
There is a danger when we believe such lies that satan whispers either by putting such thoughts in our mind or by using another person’s lips. If left uncontrolled, these thoughts can give birth to feelings of worthlessness or self-pity and even suspicion that we are wasting our life for people who don’t even appreciate our efforts.
Then comes the zing
Maybe what I do is worthless. And that is why they do not appreciate it.
When too much value is given to the words of criticizers, we tend to diminish our positive contribution and end up focusing too much on things (even minuscule ones) that we have not accomplished.
Here is the truth – What the world values, God considers dust.
My worth does not come from the things I possess or the way I look or the so called “productive” work I do.
My worth is not determined by what others think / say about me. In fact, my worth is not even dependent on what I think of myself.
My worth comes from what God thinks about me.
Even before I was born, He sent His own Son to die for me so I do not go to hell.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life – John 3:16
If I am worthless in His eyes, would He have done that for me?
When satan whispers that we are worthless, we feel agitated, angry and miserable.
When God whispers that He loves us, we feel peace even when we are in the midst of a storm.
Whose words should we ignore and whose words should we listen to?
You are worthy of God’s love. God calls you His child. With that confidence, go ahead and do what he has called you to do. Bloom where He has planted you! No matter what your situation, He has placed you there for a reason. Be the best at what you do and wait patiently. Bloom where you are and He will lift you up in due season.
Satan wants to rob our peace and job by making us agitated and restless. God knows what He is doing when He places us in an uncomfortable situation.
What you do matters. How the world judges is not how God judges our work.